He is a wise man who does not grieve for things which he has not, but rejoices in those which he has.....Epictetus

You never know how STRONG you are UNTIL being STRONG is the ONLY choice you have.....

Imagine the example you could be setting for folks who are truly afraid to come out. Two confident, successful, Men of Color. Focused on the "future of things." Breaking the stereotypes. Truly RE-defining what it means to be a Gay Man of Color. BEING the change you profess to want in this World. Step out of your comfort zone. Let the World know you exist and you are not ashamed. Widen that Circle, and keep it secret no longer. Live fully and honestly and openly. Your Brotha's and Sista's, by blood or not, your Mentors and Advisors, if they truly believe in you, WILL BE THERE. Trust and BE FREE. That truly is my only wish and Well may you be.

It is a wise father that knows his own child. - William Shakespeare

why???

Im focusing on me now JD. THERE IS NO PLACE FOR YOU IN MY LIFE. not for you, not for LEC2. my life is open and free. And DL is not a part of it. how easy it wouldve been if you just said, we dont want people to know....see, i can respect that....but to fuck with my head...and then try to make me look like an ass.... Within one breath, he went from, "no, were just friends. And if we were seeing each other, it wouldnt be any of my business...TO, JACK is my man." What saddens me is, I was thrown under a bus, to protect an image....hmpf, WELCOME TO HOLLYWOOD!

Did you EVER think twice??

Did you listen to the pleas of the beautiful black Goddess, who swore no "forgiveness" if something should happen to me? Did you ever, think twice?

Or was it all for him, and his "inexperienced psychology", oh wait, he's not even licensed....

Do You and you're Man, go to church together?
Is he holding your hand as you walk down the street?

Was he there when plans were made to "boycott" a birthday?

Was it his, or was it your's, a fact still unknown?

If you're content to simply be yourself, your life will count for plenty.

Alrighty then......who took the HEAT??? who stole the warmth?? NOWS IM MAD!!!! Nipples all PERKY N SH#T.......

Big SHOUT OUT to the Preparatory High School of Mathematics, Sciences, Technology and Careers........You made me very happy today! - Cheers and Congrats.

I'll change my life,
I'll find a way,
Nothing is gonna stop, me, now.

Future Plans....

I wasn't sure what to title this piece. I settled for "Future Plans" because I felt that summed up the essence of what I'm feeling right now.
It wasn't until quite recently, within the last two months to be more precise, that I began to plan for the future. Set goals, make plans...simple things that are done every day, at masterful levels by some I might add--but to really understand what I'm talking about---come on Tolbert, speed it up---lol.
I like throwing in bizarre, out of context, or weird "dialogue" that brings you into my World. I'm such a tease...lol.
Anyway, when every fiber of your being tells you one thing, more than once, and if it's in conflict with what you are told, or with what you "observe," you start to question yourself. Am I losing my mind? Am I making a "mountain out of mole hill?" ...I think you get the point.

The answer is no. Those 'feelings" or "instincts" are our inner bells, warning us...."something ain't right."

I've started to listen to those bells. Bells I didn't trust, or better yet, refused to trust because I was being told one thing or another, and "their" version had to be the truth because of who "they" are....but truth is often bent and re-shaped for another persons needs.....*sigh*.....
In the long run...it doesn't matter. Even if what I'm feeling, feels like I've been thrown under a bus and left for vultures to pick and consume....it just doesn't matter.

I have to do what's best for ME. And me alone. And if that means cutting people out of my life, then that's what it has to be.....
I wish you well and I will send you good thoughts. I "f" you. "F" for forgive,....I forgive you but I will never forget.
I won't be whole for a while....but for now, I'm good. And that's not a bad place to be....I go forth knowing that I am blessed to be where I am...but most importantly, WHO I AM.
A man full of love, an open heart and a strong soul.

Some tough decisions are going to made soon......and again, it's for the better.